tired.

Hate is destructive.. .

For a while.. just let me write amidst this.

Why do I feel tired of everything.. I’m tired of putting up with everything, trying trying trying.. always trying.. For once, can I think for myself? To be selfish or something? To give in?.. I already have, haven’t I? *sigh* I’m just so tired, tired of people.. so to speak. Tired of trying to please them, to make them happy.. I don’t expect anything. I’m just tired. Tired of it. Just selfish and immature about things. Rebellious even.. :( I don’t want to be this way.. to be in this place. To be so utterly irritating. Selfish. Acting like she hasn’t been granted Grace. Immature. Handling things, unwisely. I’m just tired okay.. . just tired. Tired. Tired. Tired.

And the scary thing about it.. I don’t even feel sorry.. Like, I just want my way so piss off. It scares me.

Haay.. . I’m looking on the wrong places again. Frustration. It comes.

I’m out of it again.. Focus please.. . .