so it seems…

Here I am, creating a new blog… writing a new entry. I really don’t know why I decided to start a new blog roll, since I love my old blog. There’s a lack of features in bloguru but I loved the privacy. Then one day it just became overrated for me, for reasons that I choose not to write about here. I guess mainly because they are childish and in a way superficial… but it really does matter to me. I want a place of my own. Period.

I guess I still am insecure. I want to lose myself for Jesus Christ yet I want my own person… by that I mean, I still want to be me, my own identity. But can that be? One can’t be another. Flesh and Spirit are contrary to each other. I continually will die to self, at the same time bearing in mind that I am His Beloved and He loves me just as I am. But then again I am wretched so I must relinquish my rights to Him who knows best.

Glory to God still. May His Name be lifted up in my new blog.

This is basically me, thinking of writing one thing ending up writing another thing. Selfish at times, selfless when properly tuned. Scattered brained most of the time, logical and optimistic if given the time [does it make sense?]. I can only do one thing at a time, I am very slow but I can be analytical if I remember to use my God-given wisdom. I need ample time think and reflect. I am observant but you have to give me time to see what’s right in front of my face because I often forget to really see, I tend to overlook things. Again, one thing at a time. The key-word is TIME. x3

I love to write but I don’t know if it loves me. I love to read but sometimes it depends on my mood. I love ART, any form, I can appreciate. I love photography and editing. I love to eat, I can eat almost anything. But what can immensely define me is I love the Lord. I am not perfect but I am willing to give my all to be a delight for my Lord. I am not that talented, not that gifted, not that pretty, not that intelligent… I can go on. But the greatest thing about me is… I have Jesus in me. And I am so thankful for that, I have the greatest blessing in the world for me to share, and to love. I am pretty secured in that fact.

Yes, I got a lot of short-comings but hey… God isn’t finish with me yet. So you just wait. He will finish what He started and He will do a marvelous job!.. Everything will work out wonderfully. And my life will just reflect His Glory, because He is the author of it. That is my hope…