out sick

aww… can’t keep doing this. My life suddenly stops, everyone is affected. No word from me… just oblivion. o_o

not the only ketket.

*sigh* How disappointing, I’m not the only person who has that name. I thought I’m the only one, if not the only one at least the first ever. Heheh. Shallow, thinking of this. I can’t help it. I tried to google my name, poof.. a lot of us. I don’t remember seeing results like that before. Maybe they only met technology a few years ago. Tee-hee.. XD

I wonder how they are like. Hihih… Such a cute and unique name deserves someone with personality that will equal the exquisiteness of the name. heheheh. Vain much. What’s in a name? Anyway it’s only a name. But a name says a lot about a person. In the Bible, the mothers name their child in accord with what s/he is like or will be. Names have impact. People are who they say they are. If you would examine the Bible, especially the old testament you’ll notice them.

But you can’t limit yourself with your name, what you’re called or even who you really are. The potential is great as long as you live in faith. God’s power is amazing. He will do marvelous things, more than what you can imagine, as long as you allow that power to work in your life and have faith in Him. Do not limit God.

I remember Jabez. Hmmh…

Jabez was more honorable than his brothers. His mother had named him Jabez, saying, “I gave birth to him in pain.” Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, “Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain.” And God granted his request.– 1 Chronicles 4:9-10… See the Scriptures, it seemed that his life was painful, but he prayed to God and everything changed. God can do the same for you.

Glory to our Lord Jesus, with the Name of all names.

After seeing these people named the same as me… I could say or assume that people named/called ketket are:

hmmhh.. Creative, Artistic, Extremely weird [heheh], moody(?), bubbly, aning-aning, patient, sensible but shallow at times (inbento na ata toh?), Eyebags [adj yan], indecisive, dreamer, different, lovable, easily pleased [mababaw kaligayahan], inquisitive [maganda lang pakinggan], procrastinator, optimistic, wahahah.. clumsy (?), pusa:3

Loves: Black, Green, Chocolates, Sweets, cute things, eating, Kdrama, Jdrama, K-pop, J-pop, Anime, koreans, japanese, chinito ;p

hahahah.. wulalan., My entries were a bit too serious and stiff. Just impressing another side. What’s with the saling ketket phrase?.. It’s insulting.. aheheh.. why not say it straight, an-erti enu beh?.. hahah.. saling pusa kyoh!..

test the spirits…

I want to write about something… since last night. A sort of public apology or confession. I LIED. I don’t know, what pushed me to doing it. But that’s just me saying that, in the back of my mind I can answer why i did what I did. Unfortunately, due to my inadequate vocabulary and communication skills I have trouble explaining such things. Unless, otherwise someone tries to explain it properly, I can rephrase or add/deduct to it to deliver my point.

But that’s not the reason I’m writing. I want to confess… for saying I did not see what I’ve seen and did not do what I did. It was a mistake. I overlooked things again. Anyway, I’m sorry for not telling he truth. My discernment was not working well. I was persuaded and I joined in persuading. In the end I joined with the truth but things were left unsaid and denied. I saw the guy and I believed her. My motives were good, but i was not careful. It would have been ok if someone had warned me beforehand in the first place. I’m not pushing blame. Maybe, I would have done the same thing if ever.

If someone, who you want to protect and trust you still, hands you her things in front of good people you love who are doubting her… then asks you to meet her in the bathroom. You get the message, she wants to get out of there. After she leaves, still no one tells you to stop her or tells you what exactly is happening. You decide to go to the bathroom. [sorry for letting her go] What would you do? –haha sorry for the messily constructed paragraph.

haay.. I believed her. I did. I thought they were just doubting because they had the story mixed up with other stories, it was a complex tale. If only someone had warned me… but I would still have stood by her, not that I’m not for the truth. But, the half of the truth is although I felt violated, I still love and care for her. If I knew, I will stand by her, she will know I’m still there for her, but I won’t tolerate. NO no…

Anyway, truly I’m sorry… Sorry God, sorry Israel. I don’t know why I covered for her, I guess it was a fleshly friendly impulse. freedom.

Exhausted

Aww… what a tiring day. I was nearly suffocated by all the kids in VBS. Hahah.. I just got out a flu, and I wonder how I’ll be tomorrow. Still, a ton to do. I just hope I can get things done, while thinking clearly. Much has happened… and the very first excerpt of our reflections were produced today. Splendid, I would say. I really dream of writing a book that may benefit believers all over, a book that shall provide insights that you could read and say only God can reveal such things. Wooh!.. Holy Spirit empowered.

I wonder what’ll happen this Sunday. I’m so exhausted and the week is not finish yet… *Breathe* Oh, God… Move in me… Overflow. Overflow in me.

I’m looking forward to tomorrow. I do thank God for I can still blog at this rate. I know He’ll continue to do wonderful things. He never fails to astound me. God is God, perfect in every way.

so it seems…

Here I am, creating a new blog… writing a new entry. I really don’t know why I decided to start a new blog roll, since I love my old blog. There’s a lack of features in bloguru but I loved the privacy. Then one day it just became overrated for me, for reasons that I choose not to write about here. I guess mainly because they are childish and in a way superficial… but it really does matter to me. I want a place of my own. Period.

I guess I still am insecure. I want to lose myself for Jesus Christ yet I want my own person… by that I mean, I still want to be me, my own identity. But can that be? One can’t be another. Flesh and Spirit are contrary to each other. I continually will die to self, at the same time bearing in mind that I am His Beloved and He loves me just as I am. But then again I am wretched so I must relinquish my rights to Him who knows best.

Glory to God still. May His Name be lifted up in my new blog.

This is basically me, thinking of writing one thing ending up writing another thing. Selfish at times, selfless when properly tuned. Scattered brained most of the time, logical and optimistic if given the time [does it make sense?]. I can only do one thing at a time, I am very slow but I can be analytical if I remember to use my God-given wisdom. I need ample time think and reflect. I am observant but you have to give me time to see what’s right in front of my face because I often forget to really see, I tend to overlook things. Again, one thing at a time. The key-word is TIME. x3

I love to write but I don’t know if it loves me. I love to read but sometimes it depends on my mood. I love ART, any form, I can appreciate. I love photography and editing. I love to eat, I can eat almost anything. But what can immensely define me is I love the Lord. I am not perfect but I am willing to give my all to be a delight for my Lord. I am not that talented, not that gifted, not that pretty, not that intelligent… I can go on. But the greatest thing about me is… I have Jesus in me. And I am so thankful for that, I have the greatest blessing in the world for me to share, and to love. I am pretty secured in that fact.

Yes, I got a lot of short-comings but hey… God isn’t finish with me yet. So you just wait. He will finish what He started and He will do a marvelous job!.. Everything will work out wonderfully. And my life will just reflect His Glory, because He is the author of it. That is my hope…